When you read this title, i’m assuming a few pictures of love came to your mind. A picnic overlooking the city, making it the perfect first date. Maybe, it’s the moment you see your pet after coming home from a long vacation- and seeing that expression on their faces. Or even, maybe it’s a bit more personal. You think of your parents, and their loving committed relationship they’ve been in for years. Even that childhood best friend you’ve known since you were a baby, always knowing they’re by your side. If you’re lucky, maybe you even know that feeling of meeting that someone you know you’ll share the rest of your life with.
All the same, I understand what it feels like to have this sort of love taken away. The breakups, the friends that moved away, the people who walked out when they should have stayed. That feeling of emptiness, the loneliness, and broken promises filling every part of you. Because who could you ever be without that person in your life?
In my opinion, I would say I don’t have a lot of experience with love. My first date was in high school with a boy, throwing a yellow frisbee and playing with a hacky sack by the river. Don’t get me wrong, it was great. But it wasn’t the first date of my dreams, much less the guy that I want to marry. I’ve also had that childhood best friend that lasted maybe a few years, and that favorite pet you can’t wait to see when you pull into the driveway. But I would never say I was “in” love.
But then I met Jesus.
It started off slow, and I was really hesitant. He was patient with me, He was kind, He showed me all the good in the world. More importantly, He showed me what it looked like to love life again. We had a lot of long talks, some were sweet, some maybe not so much. I had a lot of misunderstandings of what His love was supposed to do in my life. It was a lot of fights, followed by a lot of grace. Through this, He continued to show me how to love myself all over again, and for the first time in a really long time life was beautiful.
My life looked completely different when I decided to open my heart to Him, I found myself not only trusting people in my life again, but I started really trusting that Jesus would provide. I trust, that Jesus is who He says He is, and that He will wipe every tear from our faces, making all things new.
So here I am, sitting at my laptop at 10:30 at night, here to tell you that I am in love. Head over heels, screaming at the top of my lungs, in LOVE with a God who loves me dearly. And I would love for you to meet him too 🙂
I love this! Thanks for sharing it with me. I hope you feel encouraged today and know that God will provide for all of your needs. Let’s pray together that He will do this!
Sydnie, I’m in tears. This is beautiful! Falling in love with Jesus is THE greatest, most consistent love you will ever know – ever. Love for and love from anyone else is, at best, flawed, limited, just not perfect. But Jesus is perfect and His love for us reaches no end. Hallelujah! Yes, He is who he says he is, making all things new. Amen and amen.
People will always be attentive to someone who is passionate. They will watch enamored what would not be of any interest to them. Think of Steve Irwin! Keep your eyes/mind/heart focused on Jesus, receive Him in every facet. He will shine a fire through you, a passion that will draw others to His light. Love doesn’t always look like what the media or people make it out to be. May you increase in knowing this great Love in so many ways! May you find that He is with you even when you cannot sense Him. It is a life long journey with a happy ending.